Last week, April 14th marked eleven years since my brother Jeffrey passed away. Each year that has come and gone has taught me grief cannot be calculated, expected or pushed around. Grief comes and goes as it pleases and rarely gives you any kind of notice as to how she might arrive. Some times she […]
Was I ever going to be able to get out of this pit? Was I always going to feel buried by shame? Was I ever going to be able to experience freedom? I remember, I had gotten to a place of being able to fully acknowledge the presence of my soul wounds. I had acknowledged … Continue reading Looking Upward
In my recent posts, I've been talking a lot about digging into our past pain and getting the help and support we need to do so. I'm not encouraging us to dig up our crap, just to dig it up or to live in the past. But I honestly believe once we uncover the truth … Continue reading Pulling Back the Curtain to See the Truth
Last year, I trained for and ran a half-marathon. I used to hate running when I was growing up, but now as a mother - it's a gift to me. I love the silence, the space to think and I especially love how strong I feel afterwards. But there was one run which stands out from … Continue reading Trigger (Un)happy
A single moment can, in fact, change everything. Sounds like a line from a movie trailer or a cheesy motivational slogan, right? When we are living out a healing season in our life, it usually comes as more of a bit by bit process. It's a string of "Aha" moments strewn together that creates the whole. … Continue reading When a Single Moment Changes Everything
Tonight, I'm very simply sharing the lyrics to the song 'Mended' by Matthew West. My two tiniest loves have been dueling throughout the last few nights, including tonight already, so I have to wave the white flag and change my posting plans. I've had a few people reach out to me recently, asking if I'd … Continue reading Mended
Many factors contribute to us not knowing our soul voice. Things like broken relationships, loss, abuse and shame can all been contributors. When we've lost our voice and our internal “true North”, we feel disoriented, disconnected and small. We feel afraid to be seen, because we’re not sure what other people are actually seeing - since … Continue reading How Do We Find Our Voice?
***Warning: strong language used for emphasis. If you are offended, you can consider skipping this post.*** I am with you... Those four words pulled me out of one of the darkest, secret moments of my life. For several weeks, my mind tortured me with thoughts of ending my life. The thoughts usually came when I … Continue reading Uncovering Shame (Before it’s too Late)
Every once in a while, we are gifted with enough clarity about a single moment that we know it will forever define a part of our life. These are the moments we look back on as our 'Y' in the road, knowing our life could have gone so differently. I remember I was walking down … Continue reading Our ‘Y’ in the Road
You might say most humans do no want to walk toward a mess. We see something difficult, complicated or confusing and we tend to want to head in the opposite direction. That's one of the reasons I love what my pastor says: When we find that we have been making ourselves small - that we've … Continue reading How Did We Get So Small?