***Warning: strong language used for emphasis. If you are offended, you can consider skipping this post.*** I am with you... Those four words pulled me out of one of the darkest, secret moments of my life. For several weeks, my mind tortured me with thoughts of ending my life. The thoughts usually came when I … Continue reading Uncovering Shame (Before it’s too Late)
Every once in a while, we are gifted with enough clarity about a single moment that we know it will forever define a part of our life. These are the moments we look back on as our 'Y' in the road, knowing our life could have gone so differently. I remember I was walking down … Continue reading Our ‘Y’ in the Road
You might say most humans do no want to walk toward a mess. We see something difficult, complicated or confusing and we tend to want to head in the opposite direction. That's one of the reasons I love what my pastor says: When we find that we have been making ourselves small - that we've … Continue reading How Did We Get So Small?
Sometimes you read a book and certain words resonate on the spot. You're nodding your head and saying your Ah-ha's and soaking in all the author offers. Every once and a while, you discover a word, phrase or story from that book comes back and re-gifts you at a much more needed time. This phrase … Continue reading Show Up and Participate
This morning I was reminded of something I heard Bob Goff say at a conference last year. He talked about how Jesus sees us for who we are becoming. Not for who we were, not for who we currently are. He sees us for who He’s making us to be. This struck a deep cord … Continue reading Who You Are Becoming
Dear sweet Audi, I see you... I see you making your way through the trenches of parenting. And you're doing a good job. You had one deep, dark spiraling moment this week and it took everything in you to not react like you used to. Harsh self-criticism is your old way of being. And your … Continue reading Letter to Me: See the Change
Last week I finished Donald Miller’s new book Scary Close all in about 2.1 seconds. It was a breathtakingly honest and soulful read. One I’m already looking forward to rereading again. If you don't have a copy, stop what you are doing and get one. It's that good. With each line, I felt comforted as … Continue reading Are We Letting Others See the Tender Us?
Dear Sweet Audi, You made it. You made it through another week of ups and downs. And you did it with courage. And beauty. Your health and physical pain overshadowed your week and threatened to jumble your thoughts and feelings about so much. But you went right back to trusting God in the midst of … Continue reading Letter to Me: Can I Tell You Something?
Some days, the momentum of life feels up hill. The smallest amount of pressure feels like too much. The words coming out of other’s mouths seem like they’ve got nails on them. Silence would be much preferred. And energy? Well you might as well feel like Wesley from the Princess Bride, after he’s been tortured … Continue reading A Hand to Hold in Your Pain
My New Year rang in a little differently than I pictured. I pictured plowing into new routines, conquering to-do lists and strict self-discipline. Instead, I found myself bowing to the porcelain throne, dousing essential oils on my body and chugging Gatorade. As a mother of three, I found myself COMPLETELY reliant on my husband … Continue reading Reliance: My Anthem for 2015